Saturday, February 26, 2011

February 26th, 2011


Can you believe that this month is practically over? And March is peeking just around the corner? Seeing as how February is definitely one of my least-favorite months, I'm looking forward to crossing it off the calendar. But spring is also my least favorite season, so I'm not that excited about March... or April... or even May. I guess it's a lose-lose situation!

With the changing seasons, I've been thinking about change in my own life. How there have been so many changes on the outside... I found myself going through a completely foreign life in a completely foreign routine to what I knew just 2 months ago... but not so many changes on the inside. Quiet moments during the day, or those few breif seconds when my head hits the pillow before I fall asleep, I feel that time isn't really passing by. It's like my life is just one big standstill and the rest of the world is going by around me.


Regardless, I have become aware that I made a huge career-chocie mistake!!

Journalism? English? Business? What??

I should be a singer!!! =)

Okay.
Not really. I'm not about to quit college and go off and make my own band. But, I've been told so many times the past 2 months this, that I figured I ought to share! For those of you who know me, I sing a lot. All the time. Random songs. Random moments. I started singing to entertain myself when I was a little girl. I took voice lessons last year, and my favorite class at college is CHOIR! =) One of the best memories I have from this last year is my brother and I hollering along with the Ipod player driving down the road around town.

Now that I work long hours, and often late into night, I find myself singing more often, especially at work. And although it took me by surprise, I have been approached on so many occassions by the various coworkers about my vocal talent!! First, I just kind of brushed it off. Three people?

Four? Six? Wow!!!

So, I've been thinking.If something goes wrong with this path of life....


I'm forming a group and hitting the road to become a singer! =)


Psalms 96:1 O sing unto the LORD a new song: sing unto the LORD, all the earth.

Psalms 98:4 Make a joyful noise unto the LORD, all the earth: make a loud noise, and rejoice, and sing praise.

Monday, February 21, 2011

February 21st

Happy President's Day!!!

It has been several weeks since I posted last, and I apologize. Adjustment has been slow and sure and hard. But I can see how God has been with me each day.

I got my first paycheck from my job on Tuesday.

Let me say, was I ever PUMPED!!!! =)
It only happens once in your life, so I am in celebration, and wanted to share with you all!

A few things to also share about how God has sent little blessings. A week ago or so, when I was running out of money waiting for that paycheck, I really wanted some hand sanitizer and some hand lotion. Even though it seems like a small sum, just a few dollas, when just a few dollars is all you have in your purse - it becomes huge. So I just pushed it aside.

Then, God sent me a care box! The first in over a year. Not only was I touched to see the care and thought, but also to see the *chocolate* =) and especially the hot chocolate mixes! But then I got to the bottom... and there was hand santizier, and hand lotion. Wow. I was so stunned. It was so little... but it was huge to me...

Don't overlook the little blessings God sends you in life!

I hope to update more this week, but my break at work is quickly over and so I will draw this to a close. I think of my reader often! I hope it has been a good month for everyone.

My closing verse is John 3:16. Which everyone knows... but it's still so true... God SO LOVED me... he sent his son... and did even more, like sending a care box! =)

Saturday, January 29, 2011

January 19th, 2011




Has anyone ever seen the old-fashioned TV series called Bonanza?

When I first arrived in Oklahoma, I thought I had arrived on the Ponderosa Ranch and would soon be bumping into the famous, long-lost Western Cartwright characters such as Ben, Adam, Little Joe or Hoss! Coming from the bustling, modern, culturally-accelerated Chicago area, my new residence in the quiet, flat ranges of the Southwest ranching lands was such a change that I felt transported to another time and country. Although I have become a bit more situated, the change from what I have been used to is still huge and continues to deeply infiltrate every part of my life.

THE DORM

Coming from one girl's dorm to a campus with five girl's dorms, the residence I'm calling "home" was the second change I had to face soon after I drove into Oklahoma City. My dormitory is called "Mercy." It is a low brick structure positioned at the front of the campus beside a wide, barren lawn of grass asleep for the winter. At one end of the parking lot is a lush, heavily-branched magnolia tree; at the other, is the security tower where the guards keep endless vigil at the gates.

I live on the second floor, second door to the left, room number 404. My roommates are Melissa (a junior) and Meghan (a freshman). We live in suites; the room attached to our suite is room 402 where my suitemates are Jessica (a junior) and my sister Katrina. Each dorm is run by a Resident Advisor (RA) and two assistant RA's. I have not decided if it is blessing or not, but all three RA's for my dorm are in the rooms directly across the hall from mine. Hence, we are the first room to be inspected for chores, lights out, etc. But it does mean that we do not have to worry about too much noise - everyone is on tiptoe when they come to this side of the dorm, hoping to steal past the RA's unnoticed! My room is very close to the stairwell and emergency exit. It is also right next to the dorm lounge, where the pet fish Pedro keeps residence in a fishbowl.

For those who have experienced my previous college, it is difficult for me to correctly capture the difference between the two dormitories - but the difference is vast. While the former was quiet, carpeted, trimmed in oiled wood and boasted a high-arching, windowed lobby, it was kept bare and free from any visible evidence of residents. Heartland's dormitory is grey and white with florescent lamps and no gorgeous lofts or lobbeys. But the long white halls and the lounge are excitedly interrupted with colorful banners, slogans, bulletin boards, and other fraternity highlights. Pictures of the girls hang on the room doors and are tacked around the lounge walls. In replacement of hush and precision; bouyancy and vigor is the atmosphere.

Which do I prefer?

I am by nature quiet and withdrawn and simple. But the energy and charisma of the new dorm (and its residents!) is not a bad change. Just a very abrupt one.

God has blessed me with a wonderful RA, Bree. I have full confidence in her watchcare and she has demonstrated a personal care and interest that has been a huge encouragement. One of the assistant RA's is my "prayer sister" for the weekly prayer nights. Her name is Jaimie and her down-to-earth, sensible kindness to me has been a blessing, too!


ACADEMICS

I am taking 19 credit hours this semester. I had wanted a slightly-lighter load for the first semester, to ease up the transitions and while I began working a job, but God handed me a 19-hour-load, so I know he will have to be helping me to get through them all!

My classes are:
-Teaching Math (grrrrrr....)
-Teaching Science & Social Studies (I have to demonstrate an experiment in class soon!)
-Audio/Visual Methods of Teaching (what other ways can you teach besides just lecture?)
-Tests & Measurements (I have to learn how to make tests and evaluate student progress)
-Genesis (the beginning of all history)
-The Poetical Books of the Bible (Psalms, Proverbs, Ecclesiastes, Song of Solomon)
-Encounters with Christ (how did he change the lives he encountered?)
-Personal Evangelism (fun!)
-Choir (some 180 of us, maybe? it's a big choir)

The Bible classes are the same as my other college. Just different professors and thier individual approaches - but the Bible content is still the same. (Obviously.)
The teaching classes are... eh. I'm not that thrilled. This college's method of training to teach is a completely different concept with a very different focus. While I formerly was trained to gain as much experience in my teaching field (English and business) as possible, with a smaller emphasis put on general teaching knowledge (such as philosophy, methodology, testing and curriculum history); this college practices the complete opposite! Get as much general knowledge as possible, and even take classes about subjects that are not in your teachign fields (such as the teaching Math and Science & Social Studies classes!) and focus in a more minimal way on your exact field. I'm not sure I understand this approach or training. I am just glad that I went above and beyond in my previous years and took an excessive number of English and business classes. In fact, with 2 more years still to go, I have already exceeded the number of total English classes I would need to graduate from this college with my bachelor's degree for that field! Now I just have to get caught up in thier program by taking many, many broad and widescale teaching theory classes.


MINISTRIES

I have been assigned to a pre-teen Junior Church! I am really looking forward to the experience of working with the older groups, the young teenagers. I have wide experience with children, but very little direct training with teens and preteens. Accordingly, I am quite happy about this and look forward to training and serving with the greatest zeal!

I have also been assigned to an outreach soul-winning group on Tuesday nights called "Operation Saturation." There are enough of us to fill up 3 busloads. We go out into the city and knock on doors, invite folks to church, and present the gospel. I have really enjoyed the spirit and approach of my fellow soul-winners from what I have experienced so far. There is no staff "push" to be a soul-winner. The busses are lead by upperclassmen students and the attitude of excitement and prayer kept by the students themselves. This has been a big impression on me, and I have been thoroughly encouraged.

I also sing in the choir on Wednesday nights!

*Note: the college body sits in the balcony for church services. There is a great deal of space to cross when making my way from the balcony, down the stairs, across the length of the auditorium, up into the choir loft, and back the exact same route. I am awaiting the day for something terrible to happen - for a heel to catch, or to run into a pew, or to fall down the stairs, etc. Am I the only one who views the huge church as a potentially hazardous course?

In closing,

I want to thank my readers for thier kind and thoughtful comments - and especially for the suggestions on what direction to take my first post. God has blessed me with almost immediate employment, but there is so much to share - that will have to be the next post! =)

Feel free to drop a line! I love to hear from my readers.

If I could ask for a personal prayer request, it would be prayer for grace. Grace to acclimate. To adjust to the changes. To adjust to working a 30-hour job. To adjust to being a new school. For this adjustment to be graceful, and not such hectic, head-of-heels tumble into oblivion!


The verse I'm going to link to this post is John 14:27



"Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you:

not as the world giveth, give I unto you.

Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."

Monday, January 24, 2011

January 24th, 2011

Well, I am alive!

But I'm also having an incredibly difficult time accessing the internet. So this blog has been put on hold while I try to figure out the ins and outs of being The New Girl At School... because there is so much to adjust to! A new location, school, rules, faculty, student body, church, ministries, more rules, employment, etc......

But I found a way to access this blog today and wanted to say HEY to any readers I have left out there.

I deeply apologize for almost a month without a post. I am praying that God shows me a way to keep up on this blog, because it is something I really want to do.

Please drop me comments! Let me know how everyone is doing. Maybe suggestions about what aspect of my new life you would like to hear about first? There are so many options... (see above paragraph for a few of them).

Until the next post!

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

December 15th, 2010


Half over!
The month is half over already, but it seems like only a few days are left instead of two whole weeks. The countdown to Christmas has begun, and this year I have taken an interest in the Twelve Days of Christmas folksong, using it to count down the days. It is interesting to research each verse and see what they mean! In my opinion, people had strange ideas in the ancient depths of history. I imagine, however, they will be saying the same thing about us in the future!

First off would be to report on my ambitious 5 Items List with which I finished my last post. The update is not as successful as I was hoping for, though.


1) Buy bus ticket to Kiev.

Yes! I bought my bus ticket for Kiev. I will leave Kharkov (teardrops!) on Sunday, December 26th, at 12:20 noon. This is the day after Christmas... praise the Lord that He provided even this year, with its monstrous twist of fate, to spend the holiday at home with my family. I will get into Kiev around 8:00pm that night, probably more around 9:00. My plane ticket is for dawn the next morning, Borispyl.

2) Confirm arrangements for the first week in OK before the dorms open

Yes! The way this worked out was so completely Providential. The Dean of Women, Vickie Jett, dealt with the needed arrangements for me and invited me to go right to the dorms! Even though the dorms are actually closed for three days still, she graciously said they would give me my room in advance rather than try to place me at a staff member's house. This is awesome. First, because I do terribly dislike staying in strange people's houses. Secondly, because I want as much time as possible to get moved in, and somewhat acclimated to this new life before the several hundred other girls come rushing in.

And... that's about where the optimistic news ends.

3) Get insurance on my car.

Ha. That was a nightmare from the start, and the problem is getting worse. I'm not going to go into detail on this public blog. But let's say there was a day when my health shattered, and the shockwaves of that moment are still hitting fresh and new even 9 months later. I'm working on the problems, but at this point is seems quite ridiculously impossible to fix. Which, is going to pose a huge problem. Not only do I need my car when I land at O'Hare... but especially to drive with my stuff from IL to OK? And to get set up at school? And for work? Yes. This is going to be a massive nightmare.

4) Confirm arrangements for the week transitional stay in IL

Well, this one has turned out to be the big surprise. It goes to show that constant things in the past are not always going to stay that way in the future! Cancer, heart problems, the holidays and a variety of developments have brought up some huge problems to work through. I know God is in control, but experience has taught me that doesn't mean He's obligated to give seamless and happy solutions to all the problems He allows. But I am just going to trust Him to point out the path He has preordained for us to take... and take it. Regardless, I really can't wait to get to Illinois.

5) Get my AT&T contract reactivated on my phone.

Well, I'm afraid to admit, I didn't even get started on this one after the frustration of the others. We'll leave this one for next week.... =)

But!

I did get my Christmas shopping done! =D

I'm very excited about this, because it gives a great deal of pleasure to look at my neatly-wrapped gifts lined up on my desk, waiting for to be given to my dear family. (Yes, I have already gotten them all wrapped!) God has blessed me with a great family, and I am so grateful that He is allowing me to spend the best day of the the year, Christmas, with them.

This week is going to be more preparation for college. In fact, the last week of preparation! I leave in 10 days! If I can get everything done this week, that will leave the last Saturday nice and open to relax and enjoy the Holiday with my family. That's the plan! If only my life went according to plan.... =P

Instead of a verse this week, I wanted to share this song. I hope no one minds. (click on the underlined word "song" at the beginning of this paragraph to follow the link and listen to it!) It's by Casting Crowns, and I just love the message in this song. The original melody always struck me as rather... depressing... for Christmas. But the melody is completely changed, and this is an amazing rendition! The meaning of the words are very well highlighted, and I love it. It is an old carol that has long been a favorite.


I Heard the Bells on Christmas Day
Their old familiar carols play,
And wild and sweet the words repeat
Of peace on earth, good will to men.

I thought how, as the day had come,
The belfries of all Christendom
Had rolled along the unbroken song
Of peace on earth, good will to men.

And in despair I bowed my head:
"There is no peace on earth," I said,
"For hate is strong and mocks the song

Of peace on earth, good will to men."

Then pealed the bells more loud and deep:
"God is not dead, nor doth he sleep;
The wrong shall fail, the right prevail,

With peace on earth, good will to men."


Till, ringing singing, on its way,
The world revolved from night to day,
A voice, a chime, a chant sublime,
Of peace on earth, good will to men!


Everyone have a wonderful week! Let me know how the holidays are going for you!

Thursday, December 9, 2010

December nineth, 2010


I announced in my comment on the previous post my intention to update this blog weekly, to the best of my ability. The internet has been down for five days, to my great dismay, but here we are exactly a week later... and this post goes up. Thank the Lord for his small kindnesses, for they are still very kind.

This past week I have seen little to nothing of the male half of my family. My dad and the two most amazing guys in the world (aka my brothers) have been working sunup to 5 hours past dark every day on the church construction site, building the roof.

What, you may ask, does this have to do with The New Girl At School?

It means that with the house empty, I used a little liberty. The only mirror in my room rests ontop my bureau as a part of the whole, and thanks to my short height, I can really only see from my shoulders up. Also, my room is more or less a warm little cubicle - enough to move from the door to the bed, but not enough to open the closet if my sister is also standing in the room. So, in light of the new status of the house, I fixed these problems and carried my mirror (wow, it was heavy, elaborately framed in solid wood) into the dining hall and set it on the staircase. In this spacious corridor, with the mirror set to reveal my reflection head-to-toe, I dragged out all of my clothes from my room and had a try-on session.

Luggage limits are tight and I have a very bad habit of wanting to have at least 2 outfits for every given day, just in case. But now that some sacrifice was going to be required, I had to take drastic measures to eliminate the "so-so" pieces from the "I can't live without this!" pieces.

If this doesn't make much sense to you, consider that I have to plan for light winter weather into deep winter weather into rainy spring weather into warm spring weather into the first hot flashes of summer. That's a lot of different clothing demands. Also, the fashion guidelines for what colors to wear shift greatly over those three seasons, too! London greys and granite blues for January... daisy yellows and butterfly pinks for April...

It was fun. =) And it made me appreciate how well my parents provide for me, and how good God has been to my family in my life. Also, it made me realize that dominating color scheme of my wardrobe has leapt from blue and black, to burgundy and brown. Curious!

This week I also got over my inhibitions and climbed into the attic to retrieve my suitcases. Oh, the memories. So much traveling in my lifetime... and so many memories. Green suitcases, solid rectangular frame, HobbyLobby identity tags.

It's a little bit early to be packing yet... but I am keeping it in my mind.

As for the countdown... 18 days!!!!!!

Oh, I am so not ready.

The holidays are coming up soon, too. For the first time in my LIFE I will be greeting the New Year outside of Kharkov.... wow. And, right along the unfortunate tidings, I will be missing Christmas in the States by just a few days. Where is the justice in that? I would rather trade. American Christmas - carols, trees, lights, candy canes - in America. New Year - sleigh rides, fireworks, Ded Maroz, Ploshad Svobodi - in Kharkov. But.... it's not going to work out that way... alas.

The verse for this week is Psalm 101:2 "I will behave myself wisely in the perfect way." Wow! What a bold statement. With all the decisions lying before me (well... more like rushing at me with the speed of a super train hurtling along the rails full-speed...) in the next few weeks, it doesn't feel like that is possible. Wise... perfect... But it is a good goal to have. Isn't this verse just incredible?

My major goals for this next week are:

1) buy a bus ticket to Kiev
2) confirm arrangements for the first week in OK before the dorms open
3) get insurance on my car in IL
4) confirm arrangements for the week transitional stay in IL
5) get my AT&T contract reactivated for my phone

We'll see how it goes.

P.S. I need to finish my Christmas shopping, too!